Has anyone else spent more of their life high than sober?

I'm 28, but I've been using drugs since I was 13. I started with weed and acid, messed around with synthetics for a while, stopped those around 15, and stuck mostly to weed until I was 22. That's when I got into opioids, and ever since then it's been an ongoing cycle of pills and trying to fight my way out of it. I've used pregabalin, Xanax, alcohol, and I still struggle with opioids.

At this point, I realize I've spent most of my life high. I genuinely don't know what it's like to live sober, do everyday things sober, or enjoy moments without being on something, because I've almost always been high. I also deal with OCD and depersonalization, which makes everything a lot harder.

The weird part is that despite everything, I'm still physically healthy. I take care of myself, look much younger than I am (people usually think I'm around 19–21), and I'm in a good situation overall. I live in a nice area, have opportunities, and I know I've been lucky in a lot of ways. I know what I need to do, and I know I still have a real chance at having a good life.

But getting out of this cycle is incredibly hard. Opioids are the only thing that gives me something that feels remotely like peace. All I've ever wanted was a normal life: relationships, friendships, a job, hobbies, and to actually be present for it all. Even though it feels like I have "everything" I need to turn things around, I still don't know where to start. I feel trapped in this vicious cycle because, at this point, it's basically all I've ever known.