im scared

something bad will happen i know it i saw it in my dreams it happens over and over again and i cant avoid it, i dont want to go through it again and i just cut and cut myself cut and cut myself cut and cut myself cut and cut myself cut and cut myself cut and cut myself, i know it all sounds like nonsense but these memories keep coming back and i cant help but cut i cant control it i wont calm down until i cut myself, maybe the whole point of my life is to cut myself i should just delete my account why am i wasting other peoples time