The dreaded party is now just 2.5 hours away

I have always preferred to be alone and don't have friends to do things with.

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I bought tickets to all sorts of Pride events- parties concerts and workshops - during June 2026

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Because I've been so lonely the last few years during Pride.

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Now, this rave is 2 hours away

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I wish I could be excited to go! When I looked at this event a month ago, I was fantasizing about what outfit and how much fun and who I might meet... and that just dancing all night is 100% better than watching anime and smoking weed alone.

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But every time I set myself up for success by committing to going to an event, I NEVER have fun. Now, some of these events and concert, I have pushed through the SEVERE anxiety and then actually had a positive experience!

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But overwhelmingly (s.i.c. and at the same time NOT s.i.c., lol)

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Overwhelmingly it is like days and days of painful severe anxiety (experienced alone)

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I'm going to go tonight... i mean itd be sooooo defeating to give in and not go

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Does anyone else have similar experiences? Do you pish through it? Does it ever get better for you?