I suspect that I have OCD but I’m not sure

Hi! I’m 20F and have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and adhd. My psychiatrist and I also think I could be autistic but I need to save up the money to see a specialist.

I’ve struggled with my mental health for as long as I can remember but recently I’ve been feeling like there’s something else going on.

Ever since my mom passed when I was 14 I had noticed that my intrusive thoughts had gotten worse. I would think about hurting the people I love even though I wasn’t mad at them or even having sex with relatives, which I obviously do NOT want to do.

By 16 I noticed that I would need to put the clean dishes away in a specific way and put the dirty dishes in a specific place in the same order or else I would get really pissed off. And when my stepmom moved in she would move things around and I would cuss at her for doing it which also put a strain on me and my dads relationship, which eventually led to me moving into a group home and I know that it could also be a sign of autism but it also feels like a different underlying issue.

Lately I’ve noticed that my intrusive thoughts have gotten even worse. I keep on thinking that certain actions are going to lead to the death of myself and other people and I can’t keep on going like this. I also keep on thinking that I’m faking my symptoms and may be overthinking.

And for some reason I have a feeling that something REALLY bad is going to happen to me.

There’s so much more that’s going on but I can’t put the rest in words because I’m spiraling

I’m going to set an appointment to see my psychiatrist to talk to her about it but I just need some advice/ guidance on what to do.

Thanks !