3 year relationship, turned long distance, breakup. Looking for advice or just similar experiences.

I (21F) was just broken up with by my boyfriend (26M). We’ve been together for over 3 years. Long distance for one. After going to a family event that he couldn’t make (I should’ve known it was a lie) he called me, said he couldn’t let me move to him when he isn’t “all in” (I was planning on getting a job where he is and moving in together. Well we were I guess).

That was yesterday and I blocked him on everything. Part of me saw it coming. He’s hurt me in the past. I guess I still just feel a bit in shock but maybe relieved too in a way. But the reason why I’m posting is because I just don’t know if I’m handling it “right.” I know it’s only been a day but I reached out to an ex. That I’ve thought about all this time, and he’s thought of me too.

I just feel guilty I guess like what if I’m not processing the breakup “enough?” What if because I’m not a crying wreck now, (which I kinda was before he did it yesterday) that means it’ll hit me all at once later? I don’t know deep down I think maybe I wanted to break up too. And I’m not really comparing my ex to him. Even though I know it’s only been a day 😅. I guess I’m just curious where he is now etc. I guess I’d just like some advice