Doubts after taking RKM initiation as a 25yo

I have never been a religious person in the sense that I would sit for hours praying but my prayers are mostly “thank you”. Hanuman jii is my favourite deity and I feel a deeper connection to him, I can talk to him freely, He does not need initiation to be prayed nor needs chalisa reading everyday and will Always always hear your prayers although I do read chalisa diligently everyday at multiple times on somedays, I dont feel forced. I dont feel fearful that bad will happen if I miss it one day. I dont feel scared He will stop listening or I will loose my bond with Him.

However, after I took diksha from RKM (partly because of my mom wanted to), I am told that from now onwards sri Ramkrishna dev is my ishta and I am supposed to focus fully on him. I can pray to others too but He should be my priority 1. I feel this is forced at this point. Can I not continue RKM japa while feeling Hanuman jii is my primary ishta?

Secondly, I cannot sit for hours long for japa atleast right now, due to time issues and also patience issues. And I was told if I dont follow RKM rules diligently (they said to do japa for 1 hour twice a day without fail or gap of even a day), then bad things will surely follow. I regret taking initiation now. How true is this? Or is this just fearmongering?

I did not take initiation so many years just for this reason that I want to have a heart to heart connection with my deity without too many strict rules & fear mongering.