There is no one behind the screen

I just want to know if there's anything genuine about my identity, if there's a future for me. The truth is, I want to be known somehow, it's not that I don't care about anything. My image matters to me, the image I project to others sometimes matters. But I don't know anything, everything is so confusing that I don't even know if what I'm saying is genuine, but I swear the frustration is real, I'm not lying. Sometimes I feel nothing, and other times my head is a little foggy, not exactly full, I don't know how to express myself, I hate it. I feel like I'm always lying, I always think of me as a separated person I don't know but created a concept of him, of his problems and personality. I just want to cry right now, of frustration, or to roleplay it.