It hurts me to not transition to male, but my fiancé only likes women.

Hello, I prefer to not say my name on here, but I am 25 and was born in a female body.

I don’t know what to do about this. I just feel done doing nothing. So, I’m going to Reddit.

My whole life, girly stuff seemed kinda weird to me and I remember wanting to be male before knowing trans was even a thing. Sometimes, I would accept the fact that I am a woman, but the feeling I get when I’m he/him and masculine is more welcoming than the thought of me being a woman forever.

I’m still attracted to men, mainly my fiancé, but he’s straight and I haven’t transitioned because I love him a lot. Lately though, I’ve been crying at night and hiding it from him because I feel stuck in this feminine body. That and my parents are not very supportive of transitioning and I don’t have a lot of friends. So, who would I go to if I did transition and my fiancé didn’t want me? Not physically, but emotionally.

I told him what name I would want, but I can tell he isn’t changing his opinion.

Idk. I really want to be more masculine and a man, but I don’t want to leave him.