Guys, things are bad. Didn’t see it going this way.

Currently have a hotel for the night. My wife and I have had struggles for a while. 4 kids under ten. 1 special needs. Typical arguments but I’ve just been unable to compromise or “give in” to keep the peace lately. I’m hyper responsive to criticism now, and her saying I don’t do enough is getting me down to where I want to leave permanently. I wake up and from the time I get up until go to bed it’s nothing but family things, work, cleaning, bills, doctor, sports, therapies, tutoring, etc…….

Not to mention no bedroom life for years. I was understanding while the kids were super young, my youngest is 6 now and we’ve probably had sex less than I can count on one hand in the time my youngest has been born.

Currently in therapy, have tried it before too. I just don’t think she cares to have a relationship, or it’s just not a priority. The kids come first no matter what. Anything comes first besides us. Any intimacy or hug or anything seems performative, only when it’s in front of other people. In our last therapy session she said she understood I wouldn’t be around forever and we needed to do something.

I guess this is a vent or advice post. Not really sure.