How did you let go of shame and keep living life?

I was diagnosed last April after doing routine pregnancy blood work. I've shared my story here a few times. I'm pretty sure I know who gave it to me but I try not to focus on that. It's been over a year since I was diagnosed and although my son and husband are negatice, I'm still a wreck on the inside. I try not to show it but I'm not the same. I feel like I'm less of a person. I hold so much guilt and shame for the harm I could've done to them. For the fear I caused my family of not knowing of the baby would be negative or not. I don't have a wild past but I do hold shame for trusting someone and for making a dumb decision to not be protected with this person. I have let this virus tell me that my worth is non existent. I want to move on but I don't know how. Counseling has helped a little but not nearly enough. How did you decide to start living? Kindess is appreciated. 🦋