[USA] #Massachusetts Wanna be Sissy looking to be broken

Dying to like actually end up a sub bottom. Like I am already like convinced, just need that extra help to get me to commit to ending up on my knees. I hateee that I hesitate. I am 34, white, slim, 140, smooth, 5'9", married. Yes I also like to be femme. I really just find myself with a total preference to want to like wanting to be someone(s) willing mouth/toy. Like ahh please break me hahah