On Feeling Trapped And What Came After: it is greener than it used to be

For a long time, I thought the feeling of being trapped came from not having enough options.

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I'm no longer convinced that's true.

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Looking back, some of my most difficult decisions had less to do with the choices in front of me and more to do with the stories I was telling myself about those choices and how i thought around them.

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What success meant.

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What failure meant.

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What counted as wasted potential.

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What kinds of lives were worth wanting.

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A younger version of me was very attached to some of those stories.

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Reality turned out to be far more interesting.

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These days, I spend my time doing research at one of the country's premier medical institutes, pursuing a non-clinical MD, collecting hobbies, following curiosities, and building a life that feels far more my own and way larger than I once thought possible.

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Over the years, many juniors have reached out wanting to talk about careers.

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A surprising number of those conversations end up somewhere else.

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Fear.

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Possibility.

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Identity.

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The strange assumptions we carry about our futures.

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I've grown quite fond of those conversations.

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So I'm making room for a few more.

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If you're feeling stuck, uncertain, curious, at a crossroads, or simply want a space to think out loud with someone who's wrestled with similar questions and has an obsession over pointing out that there are no wrong answers, just not good enough questions.

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One practical detail.

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I dont like giving out-of-context advices in the comment section, cos simply i dont have magical superpowers to figure out your context, well, not yet ig. What I am offering on the table is 1:1 conversations

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This has proven far more alarming to people who enjoy rigid systems than to the people I actually talk to.

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We'll figure it out afterwards.

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I'm curious. I hope you're too.

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