ADHD help

Hey everyone.

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Im 33F. I have recently been diagnosed with ADHD which explains alot of struggled behaviour through my life and I'm wondering if this is one of those things, so would like it anyone can enlighten me...

So, when in a relationship im very much all in it. Im two feet in or two feet out. I cant do it by halves. If you have me, you have all of me. I also really struggle with self esteem and I find my entire mood is totally dependent on my guy. If I feel like hes giving me attention and love, im on cloud nine! The sky is bluer the world is great and I have so much energy and productivity... in contrast, when hes really busy with work and he's got his hands full, im miserable. I know it sounds ridiculous. I feel so stupid, like a teenager.

Is this just an internal issue or is this related to the dopamine I get when im hos focus? Is it ADHD or my being a knob?