Relationships & Random Stuff

Hello fellow Narcs, (not sure if that’s derogatory or not) I currently have a dilemma that I am trying to sort out. I have a friend I am getting closer to. She is a very nice good, very sympathetic. She helped me on my first night of quitting cigs and THC. I have feelings for her, I guess. My therapist and friend (a mutual friend) have told me that they don’t believe it’s a good idea. They say that I’m healing from another toxic relationship, (true, she prolly had BPD) but that was in January. Also, I’ve been working on myself, but I am what I am so I don’t expect progress. I know what I am, and I have emotionally manipulated people (specifically women) unconsciously. The mutual friend noticed and calls me out on the playing the victim a lot. I don’t think (though I’m not 100% sure) I want to hurt my crush, but I know with the Narc tendencies I will move on from my scorched earth with little empathy given enough time.

TL;DR: I don’t know if I should pursue a relationship with a very nice girl. My friend and mutual friend don’t believe I’m ready yet. I don’t know if I should pursue, but I’m pretty sure if I hurt her I won’t care in the long term