PTSD and alcohol (CW)

Was just wondering how everyone else feels after drinking. I know the answer to my issue is to probably not drink but I do only do it socially and tbh I wouldn’t want to completely cut it out of my life. Every time I drink and kind of let my nervous system stop being in a whole overdrive I experience such bad guilt and embarrassment over nothing? It’s so weird because although when I’ve drank nothing bad or embarrassing has happened at all I keep replaying convos and worrying, it’s like hangxiety x50 over nothing lol , does anyone else get this?