v is for vendetta

To my first love, my first everything, my everything nice, and my TOTGA,

Despite everything that happened between us, I still wish you well. I still have a soft spot for you in my heart. There are so many regrets that I carry. Sometimes I wish I had fought harder for us. But during the time when things were becoming unclear between us, I was drowning too. I had to save myself first. I had to prioritize the things in my life before I could save our relationship.

I'm guilty that I didn't prioritize us the way I should have, especially when we both chose to stay. I know we both made mistakes, but I want to let you go with peace in my heart.

I also dedicated my thesis to you because I wanted you to be proud of me. I poured my heart into it. It still stings that I wasn't able to finish that chapter of my life with you by my side, and that you never got the chance to read my manuscript.

I did well during my defense and received a high grade. I wish I could have told you about it because you knew all the struggles I went through. You knew how hard I worked and how much it meant to me.

Thank you for everything. I mean that. Thank you for being my baby, my best friend, my coworker, my chef, my personal AI, and the person I could always run to. Thank you for being there, even when I wasn't able to tell you everything I was going through with my family and with myself. Your presence meant more than you probably realized, and I still appreciate it even now.

I miss you, and I love you 3000.