New Convert in Turmoil over marriage situation

Hi everyone,

I was received into the Catholic Church at Easter and I'm grateful to be Catholic. However, I'm currently in a difficult situation regarding my marriage, and my priest has contacted the tribunal for guidance.

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The issue is that my wife was divorced before we married. Her first marriage was a civil ceremony and our marriage was the same.

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As far as I'm aware her ex and herself were baptised in recognised baptisms as infants as was I. Of course non-catholic.

My wife is not practicing any Christian faith and she has no intention of becoming catholic she's agnostic if anything.

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It came to light that at the moment, I'm unable to receive Holy Communion while everything is being reviewed.

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I'm trying to remain faithful—attending Mass, praying, reading Scripture, and staying close to Christ—but honestly, not being able to receive the Eucharist is one of the hardest things I've ever experienced spiritually. Every Mass I find myself longing to go forward, and sometimes it leaves me feeling discouraged and isolated.

I do go cross armed for the blessing.

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I know the Church's teaching comes from a desire to be faithful to Christ, and I'm not looking to argue with that. I'm simply struggling with the waiting and uncertainty.

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Has anyone else been in a similar position? Whether you were waiting on a tribunal decision, an annulment, or another situation that prevented you from receiving Communion, how did you cope? What helped you stay hopeful and connected to Christ during that time?

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I'm heartbroken to be honest and I'm so worried the church wouldn't be able to keep me.

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I feel like an imposter.

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I'd be grateful to hear your experiences.

God bless.