Grey Matter Tuning

Over the years it's been brought to my attention that my brain is defective. Well not defective, maybe demented..

dementia..

abnormal essentially.

Aliens live among you and we come in peace.

Problem being my chemistry is still not deemed correct for this environment. So I have a special friend who I pay well to make sure the local pharmacy stocks the chemicals my brain doesn't manage well.

The amphetamines are genuinely helpful, but when they hand me two handfuls of meth I feel distressed. Like this bag in my hand isn't something I shouldn't have.

There's a lad down the street that died last week trying to buy similar shit but he didn't have a script and so he died after overdosing. Not my business I guess how much harm we're reducing.

As for the others I just don't know if I should bother.

SSRIs make me blank. Literally just coasting on nothing like its a life.

Antihistamines work to reduce anxiety better in my opinion and nothing will make you happy if you aren't enjoying yourself.

So I guess I have to wonder if I'm going about the whole thing wrong.