I just want to he silly and me but ARGghh-! social expectations..

Like I keep trying and trying to better myself and be unapologetically me, but then people treat me like I’m garbage and suddenly the bipolar kicks in halfway through a conversation and I start second guessing my entire personality and woohoo social withdrawl!

then all my online friends are kinda weirded out by me and avoid talking to me a lot of sometimes (like they do it often but for short bits) or just straight up ghost me and it’s like no matter how hard I try to be me nobody likes me for me :((

Idk I’m just tired of feeling like I’m a nuisance to every single person I talk to bc I’m too quirky or different and I keep having to suppress myself to just be..