everything reminds me of us tonight

i hate how everything in my room has a story attached to it now. I was cleaning up earlier and found that old concert ticket from last summer under my bed. we were so incredibly happy that day and now it just feels like a different lifetime entirely.

it’s crazy how fast someone goes from being your entire world to just a memory. I keep catching myself wanting to text him to tell him about my day. it’s like my thumbs just automatically go to his contact out of habit, and then it hits me all over again. ngl the house just feels so empty right now.

i'm trying so hard to distract myself with Netflix but i'm not even paying attention to the screen tbh. my mind is just racing. i don't want to start spiraling so i figured i'd just write this out here instead. hope everyone else is holding up okay 🫠