What else is there...?

Been sober 4 days or so now. Alcoholism hit me like a freight train - went from straight-edge to sinking a bottle of wine (eventually two) almost overnight.

I won't lie, it felt good. Finally all those shitty problems and worries dissolved away, and I could actually enjoy life for a few measly hours instead of drowning in negative thought spirals and infinite worries.

Anyway, this can't continue, and I'm going to get help. Amusingly, my breaking point came when I started gaining a small belly for the first time in my life, which I simply cannot have - even in the depths of despair, my own vanity protests.

But, god alive, I'm bored and miserable. I have a few things to look forward to this year, but they're weeks and months away - how on earth do I pass the time healthily until then? Especially as someone with no family, and few friends with almost no availability.