Normal Life

“Early onset” but it’s just like that. Yeah I’m unlucky. I can’t believe some people develop disorders later. I just happened to be cursed. I couldn’t experience a normal life. I hate normalness to clarify. I just wish I lived a happier life because it seems that normal is happy.
I’ve always been the way I am which makes me look at others and question everything I know. I wish I had privileges.
Dressing nice. A lot of friends. Funniness. Attractiveness. Smarts. A good reputation. And no labels. No hospital visits, no medication, no therapy. No upset parents.
I guess I am lucky to at least have a conscious. I have some friends that just so happen, by the grace of god, to be as strange as me. I don’t have it all bad, no. But a happier life would be cool. Or at least happier times and no early onset curse.