I feel lost and confused with my gender.

Lately I feel like I question my gender too much after being pretty sure about it for years.

I (F21) have been questioning my gender since being a teenager. And now I'm pretty sure that I don't connect with any human-ish gender description. Being a woman or a man is confusing for me and too limiting. And if I could look less like a human - I think I would choose it.

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However lately I think too much about "oh I wish I looked more masculine, it feels so much like me". And when I was a teenager I used to feel much more masculine than anything else. But since this feeling dissappeared I stopped taking anything similar serious.

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So for a long time all these thoughts were something like "yeah i would love to have masculine features but well anyway back to life", you know. And it's only today when I questioned myself if it's actually just something silly and, I don't know, something not real at all. I don't know how common it is to feel this way for people. Humans are really confusing for me for a lot of time and I have no idea how much of my experience is actually common. And this time it's the same.

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How often do people just wish they had more features of another gender? How often do cisgender people have that? I don't know, I'm confused for lots of reasons I can't actually explain right now in words. I would love if someone could share their thoughts or experience. Thank you a lot.

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