Its happening

I’m being infiltrated. My stalker is using the exact person I predicted to get near me. And she is being a good little soldier. She already has my closest friends who have heard me speak about my fear for over a year… undermining me in less than 3 weeks. I have pressure from all angles to just drop this and pretend like nothing is wrong. Because if I don’t do that, according to the group of people, I appear as the woman who made this up for no reason other than to cause drama. And you, are the only person who knows the truth. I’ve been fighting this battle alone for two years. I can continue. The psychological warfare within me and my soul is incredibly destabilizing. I want you to know, that I still love you. I’m angry and scared. Because I have made a promise to myself to walk away from anyone who gets too close to my stalker. Because he’s so skillful, he keeps his hands clean, while the pressure builds around his target. But the pressure is strategically designed by the group of people. And they don’t even realize what they’re doing. So trying to describe to the people we’re supposed to care about you, who are now undermining your fear that you expressed for a year, hurts just as bad as a fucking punch if not more. All I’ve wanted from the very beginning was to choose closeness and transparency with you. And maybe I was alone on that. But I want you to know, I still want you, but not because it would prove anything in the situation. But because I still love you. And I never want you to think that I would want you to come around to prove how wrong this is. I would want you to come around, so you and I could have a fresh start. I feel like we truly believe. I’ve been doing my best to stay positive, block out the comments made to me by friends when it comes to this situation. It’s very clear they no longer believe me. My musical group had a secret party not long ago, that I was not invited to, because my stalker was going to be there. Really sucked to find out that after a year with this musical group who I thought were my friends, they been easily manipulated to not tell me things, thinking I will have a reaction, or that I’m crazy. I have a lot of people think I was crazy in my whole life, that won’t stop now. But this is the hardest thing I think I’ve ever faced. I’ve never felt such an outside pressure from a group of grown people to be friendly to someone I’m scared of. The only reason I have to continue even talking about this, is because he does infiltrate my groups. So my friends who have heard me talk about this now only hear babble, because of how good of a manipulator he is. I feel like I’m living in a psychological prison. I have to remember they’re always more choices than I see directly in front of me. Right now the only choice I see, is to start fresh once more, leave the Friend group who no longer believes me. Leave my musical group because they are now ties to the person I’m scared of. It doesn’t help that I actually have been scared for a year, and that I actually do have mental health issues that I’m transparent about, because that has only built to the narrative that I am capable of making things up. But you know I didn’t. So please, please stop leaving me alone. And if you have no plan to come forward, just please now that I will continuously work my hardest to not hold anger towards that. The anger I would hold only would come from a place of selfishness. And I want to always love you selflessly. So always whatever is best for you, but if for some reason that’s me… Please don’t leave me standing on this island for long. The sharks are swarming.And I don’t know how long I can hold out for.