24F cheated on my long term bf

So for a little context, my boyfriend and I have been together since freshman year of high school. I’m 24 now, and we’ve only ever been with each other. Lately though, he’s been very vanilla and not really into me, and honestly I’ve been getting pretty fed up with it.

The other night at work (I’m a bartender), these two guys kept hitting on me. It was honestly really turning me on. They were probably in their late 30s, I’m not exactly sure. I don’t really know what came over me, but after a couple hours of them flirting with me, I told them to wait for me in the back parking lot after the bar closed.

I hooked up with them & they both fucked the hell out of me. It was honestly the best sexual experience I’ve ever had.