I don't know how to feel

As someone who went through three losses, two of which were chemicals, I am struggling to process yesterday's video. I went from being sad (for the infertility community and anyone else who was triggered by her description of her alleged loss) to mad (from the inaccuracies in her story, her tone, the Amazon links, how this feels like one big lie to sell Beam, for the infertility community she's constantly preying upon, for her kids, I could literally go on). I am also mad at myself for not believing a woman about her losses twice now because I know what it's like to be dismissed when it comes to this topic - I experienced people do this because the two chemical pregnancies were discovered so early.

I think why I feel this way is because the tone was so incredibly off. She was so stone-faced and scripted, with absolutely no emotion. Adopted kids or not, you can't convince me that anyone wouldn't feel anything after a loss. I've never seen a miscarriage video where the family involved wasn't devastated up until yesterday. Either she's a complete psychopath or it's not real, because what do you mean you barely cried? It's not only so tone deaf but also so weird.

I also mentioned this in the comments but what happened to zero testosterone and her thyroid? She literally has so many issues other than endo/adeno that it's so hard believe she naturally got pregnant. Were those even real or was she making up things to fit into the infertility community after G was adopted?

This whole thing just gives me the biggest ick and I am calling it now - she'll soon be posting ads for Beam about how it helped her "balance her hormones" after a miscarriage. I feel like the bar is in hell for how many disgusting things she'll do to make a buck.