Never get a break

I have a 5 year old and I never had a break. I get breaks to catch up on housework. I get random breaks that often I don’t know when they end. My child was 2 yrs old before I could lie down when I was sick- including times I had fever
The only night I missed I was in hospital and they woke me up every two hrs
I never woke up on my own

Child wakes me up
I immediately needed every 2 min. I am teaching her to let me rest
After I put her to bed I do chores
Go to bed at 10 if I’m lucky - often at 11 - lately midnight
I do most chores in the house
I told my husband I’m in a burnout when daughter was 1
Somethings not right- that’s 4 yrs ago.
He’s not sorry I’m just a bad personality
If I said this to him he’d deny and say I’m the problem
He works- I can’t. I am a stay at home mum- lucky to be one it’s also true I never rest never enough to feel in balance - all grandparents sick or far etc

How normal is this?
I’m so tired
My personality changed
I’m more hyper and strange from the exhaustion.
I have social anxiety

We all are trying our best. So is my husband.
But I feel like an utter failure. I’m trying. Struggling to cope
I had less than a year between breastfeeding and perimenopause
If I struggle my family treats me like I’m negative
I literally did so much to prove I’m not and even when I struggle I make room for others and be a shoulder to cry on

I look at my life and I feel I messed up/ I let myself down. I have no lifestyle just work no social circle not strong enough not one person knows how I feel
I chose friends who resemble my family / it’s not a healthy dynamic
I keep working on myself
I’m so overwhelmed with the lack of sleep the work that never ends the loneliness and I don’t give up I keep trying to get to a point where I have a lifestyle..