Has anyone else ever wanted to just run away from home?

I’m a 2026 graduate with a TCS job offer, but I don’t know exactly when my joining letter will come. The waiting period has made things worse at home.

Over the years, my father has been emotionally and verbally abusive. He often says things like I am “not worth anything” and that I will never bring money into the household or be able to support the family. These comments have become more frequent recently, especially now because he feels I am “jobless” until my joining starts.

Whenever he gets angry, the first thing he says is that I am worthless. It has started affecting me deeply. I find myself crying often and feeling like I’m constantly under emotional pressure in my own home.

What hurts even more is that my mother and sister don’t really intervene. I understand they may stay silent to avoid making him angrier, but even when I am alone with them, they don’t talk to me about it or comfort me. They act like nothing happened, and that makes me feel even more isolated.

They are the ones who are supposed to support me, but instead it feels like they are turning the knife in deeper every single day by staying silent. I feel completely alone and overwhelmed. I don’t understand why their words hurt me so much, but hearing them from people who are supposed to love you no matter what is painful.

At this point, I don’t even feel like I’m asking for love anymore. I feel like I’ve lost all the respect I once had for my father because of how I’m being treated. I am currently waiting for my job joining (TCS offer), but the waiting period has made things worse because these situations happen more often now.

I feel stuck, lonely, and mentally exhausted in my own home. I want to leave, but I’m currently dependent and waiting for my job to start. I don’t know how to cope with this situation anymore. Any advice or support would really help.