I am seriously considering ending it all

I can’t do it. I got out of the relationship and things are far worse now and I can’t even explain everything I just can’t do it anymore I can’t take it anymore. I don’t want to be alive anymore I reached my breaking point. I’m going to loose in court I don’t even think my restraining order will get approved and I am in so much pain I can’t even explain this pain to anyone it’s unbearable I’m not strong enough. He keeps messaging me from new numbers or having his friends send me messages and the police can’t do anything and he asked me last week if I had killed myself yet and I am so close to doing it I can’t take it anymore this pain is like blinding insufferable and I’m not even in the relationship anymore no one can help me and I’m alone. I don’t have anymore fight left in me