Mental health update

Hey there!!

Please guys help me in this

I've been living in a constantly growing toxic home things are getting more and more complex day by day the toxicity is getting at its peak. My both parents don't have much better relation with each other but they keep arguing with each other since whenever they've got the vacations and it's not just that they're arguing this time only actually they've been constantly having toxicity with each other since last 4-5 y and now they're targetting me also my mom keep doing strange things with me she just argues with me blames me for all actually she compares me that look around and see the kids of your age group they are doing much better for their parents and all that. Actually I was a jee dropper and I did everything whatever i could do for that those sleepless nights, i did everything for that (can't explain)but yes I got the disappointed result at the end but somehow I'm getting a govt college and I've got straight 2 months more to live in this toxicity, she's not good at all even though they both don't have a good relationship but she always mentally abuses me and taunts me everytime what should I do guys please give me some tips. I'm getting straight to the hell my mind is completely in a blank phase where only life ending thoughts are getting poured.