letting go

i know you're in a relationship. i didn't know that when i developed these strong feelings for you, but now i'm stuck with them. i keep holding on and hoping for clarity when the clarity is already there. you had your partner confront me about these feelings (that i was trying to hide due to guilt) instead of just telling me yourself. i still don't know what your opinion of me was. i might never know. all i wanted was for us to speak face to face about this. i don't even have to be with you, i just wanted you to know how much you've impacted me. i wish you two the best in your relationship. fawning over you was fun, but completely meaningless. all i desire is a real relationship, but i found myself in another situation that did nothing but hurt me. i'm hoping to find someone available and honest who makes me feel the same way you did. i wish we could've at least been friends! i thought we got along pretty well.