5 months

it completely tortures me that I wasn't worth more. I saw some pictures of some salt caves and I remember the pictures you sent me. I thought we'd be travelling and having those experiences together. it completely and utterly tortures me that you told me how he didn't measure up to me in so many ways but you gave him 4 years and all the support you had and you left me in this complete aberration of an event in my life that i hadn't experienced in over 10 years. it tortures me that you told me at one point I'd been an angel in our relationship and you could never say anything bad about me. it tortures me that he got to travel with you and hold you for 4 years and i got 5 months. i don't know why i'm worth so little. it fucking destroys me beyond belief and i just feel like i've got to accept what the world has repeatedly told me because i don't have the strength to fight it anymore

i loved you. i'll always remember those 300 kisses. i finally felt safe and seen.