alienated at 15

im so sick and tired of always being compared to other kids istg. People constantly tell me stuff like "Look at them, they go to practice, they don't stare at their phones, they get good grades... but who even are you? You’re never gonna achieve anything in life." Honestly? I dont give a single fuck about their opinion anymore. I’m independent, and I’m completely done with them. Even if my shoes are untied, just don’t talk to me—I literally do not care.The same exact thing happens with my gaming stuff. I train so hard in Brawl Stars bc I want to qualify for tournaments, get into esports, and make my own money. I'm only 15, and this is my actual dream. But everyone keeps telling me "It's a scam, you're bad at this game, you'll never make it." Like bruh, they could have at least supported me. My parents don’t understand a single thing about esports. I try to explain it to them, but they just say it’s a waste of time and a scam.For a long time, I just swallowed all the humiliation and provocations bc I didn’t want any extra trouble. But I’ve had enough. Out on the streets, whenever I get into a fight and start winning, the guy's "loyal" friends immediately jump me. Literally every single fight turns into a 1v3 or even a 1v20. Recently, I had a situation at school where I had to fight a mob of like 15 to 20 dudes. I fought back hard and took down almost all of them. I consider it a win bc it was literally 1 against 20.I’m also completely done with my so-called "friends" and their pathetic jokes. They constantly mock my appearance—my nose, eyes, neck, and fingers. I was born with crooked fingers, and these "friends" actually make fun of it. Every time I wear oversized baggy clothes, people start shouting, "Hey look at this weirdo, what kind of a trash outfit is that?" Meanwhile, these same losers walk around in tight pants looking like total nobodies. At school, people call me a "ram" just because I have naturally curly hair, while those idiots rock generic bowl cuts.And the teachers are the absolute worst. I haven't gone to school for a week now because they told me my hair is too long and said, "Don't come back until you get a haircut." But they are no better. They give me failing grades the second I don't memorize something for the most useless subjects ever, like music or shop class.Things got so bad at one point that I almost ended my life because of one of those teachers. I was ready to jump off a cliff. But that person lied to my mom, and of course, nobody believes me. Everyone just tells me, "You're just a kid, so you must be lying."(btw im NOT in that dark place anymore, i wrote that specific cliff part like 3 months ago. im a 15yo guy, 8th grade now. just needed to get this off my chest)