Grateful for my Emotions

I have something concerning to write about. I used to be on Sertraline due to really high anxiety in a previous position. Honestly, I started a new role and had to come off of it. On the medication, I didnt care about anything. I didnt have any emotions either and I let people walk all over me. Im starting to think that I grew up in a household where anger and questioning were unwelcome. This turned me to people pleasing on default. As a result, I became angry anxious mess. However, I never had a safe environment in which to practice boundaries.

As I started coming off my meds, my emotions came back and I experiment with expressing dislikes and anger. I felt s sense of ease in daily life, and it scared the shit out of me. I felt like I could express myself and my fwelings and people would respect them. As opposed to growing up, not so much. It truly scared me.