Sorry for everything,my parents, my younger self, all those who had hope in me, I ending all

I cant continue to live with the regret and keep it all up to myself,

It was my 3rd drop, such a fucking failure, i don't even recognise myself what I have become, told lie about the score said it is near cutoff, but it's not where near,

I wish I fucking died in an accident or any circumstances atleast my parents won't have that guilt why I killed my self, but I think sometimes to not be more of a fuckup is to take a hard decision and end it, I am just tired with myself,and my life, no pressure from anybody, just to numb rn,

I don't if anyone will read this, most probably will delete later, have so much to write but it doesn't matter now, my life is ruined, mentally, physically,socially, ....