My Piss-tory of This Kink

In gr@de school, I'd sit on the toilet facing the flushing side of it, trying to figure out how or where my pee came out of.

In m1ddle school, I was in my room, still not sure where it came out of. I had to go, and had a free standing mirror and an empty glass. I locked my door and squatted down in front of it. I had to go so bad, I immediately had to divert all my attention to not spilling or over filling, and missed my shot to see. I had filled up a large drinking glass and remember having to cut off the stream cuz it nearly over filled. After, I was embarrassed of myself, even though no one knew, and didn't try it again.

In college, I had a small video camera and recorded a close up of my vagina while my legs were spread on my bed over a towel in my apartment, and cautiously let some pee out. I watched it over after and got off to it, but I guess I wasn't spread open enough to see where it was coming from. What turned me on about the video i made was more just seeing my clit and the stream coming out below it.

I watched videos of women peeing and it got me so hot and wet. But it was so rare that I'd actually see the urethra if at all. And I still hadn't seen mine.

Then I saw some video of a woman shoving things into her urethra. It made me want to try that.

Sidebar, I used to think I was bisexual because the female anatomy arrouses me. But, when I did try to have a few physical engagements with other females on different occasions, for whatever reason, it turns out, I am not turned on by other women touching me or me touching them. It's a very big turn off for me, oddly. I just enjoy watching other women. But yeah, the experiences, for whatever reason, when having physical interaction, really did nothing for me. But with a man, just kissing alone can get me feeling sensations between my legs, wet and arroused. I do think tough, that i would enjoy peeing with another woman, provided theres no touching. Having her watch me and herself, and i watch her and myself. Probably facing each other, close to each other, and pulling back the labia so the urethra is in view as our streams pour out near each other, and the clits are also both visible during the peeing. Best case scenario, wed both engage in activity with our husbands afterwards all within eye shot of each other. But that's just one of my fantasies.

Anyways, I ended up buying a sounding kit. I read up online about where the urethra was located and how to find it. And so, when I was 35 years old, I finally found my peehole. My husband had never seen it before, and didnt know exactly where it was either, so I showed him. I oiled up the sound and slid it in. I rubbed my clitoris while softly and slightly sliding it in and out of my pee hole. It creates a super sexual, panicky feeling for me, and I find it forcefully engaging and overcoming. ..My clit got big and hard and engorged, and couldnt take anymore. Finally, the resulting orgasm permeated my clit and urethra.

I love the feeling of fullness I get from a sound in my pee hole and a dildo in my vagina. Add to that clit stroking and nipple play, and my body and mind becomes so overwhelmed with pleasure, I have to try *not* to orgasm just so I can actually enjoy it for a bit. It's just way too much at once, yet I love it.

...Around the same time that i started sounding, one day, I tried using a dildo and just pounding myself with it. I never had an orgasm from soley PIV sex. Sure, id stim my clit at times during sex and have an orgasm from that. But never a full orgasm from just piv.

So i decided to explore. After awhile, it felt awesome. I felt pressure building up, then a whole bunch of clear liquid shot out of me. I was in disbelief. This never happened before. I told my husband, very excited.

I always had wanted to squirt, but had only done so once, before I knew what squirting was. I was having sex with my ex years and years ago, and it happened. He screamed at me that I was pissing on him and threw me off of him. I felt ashamed and embarrassed.

When i got older, i found out what squirting was, put 2 and 2 together, and realized that's what had happened to me that one time with my ex when i was 18 years old.

Anyway, after that experimental dildo session at 35, the squirting started happening during sex - a lot. Now, a few years later, I squirt most of the duration of time we are having sex. ​I know some may say its pee. I brought that up with my husband and he said he doesnt care cuz he loves it and its super hott. Its clear and odorless, and I always go to the bathroom before and after, so idk. But it feels amazing. But it's not quite an orgasm.

During sex, while I'm squirting, I slide my fingers down and feel it shooting out of what seems to be my peehole. Sometimes it trickles out softly and other times, it jets out of me. I like watching it shoot out directly from my hole because it's the physical picture of the pleasure I'm experiencing, much like watching my clit pulse during an orgasm. It'll shoot out onto his leg if i pull my lips up and open. Towels are a must for us.

I like to pretend im being naughty when it happens. "Oh no, so much is coming out of me," I might say as I ride the great waves of pleasure. He only encourages it. "Let it go," hed say, or "Aww yeah" But I dont have control of it. The better it feels, the more I pour out.

Yesterday morning i took a shower. I had already peed 2 or 3 times that morning. A normal sized piss every time too. But, i had to go badly again in the shower. I stepped one foot up on the shower seat and pulled my labia up and back. I could see my bulging little clit nub protruding, and then shortly below it, a clear, strong stream began shooting out of my body. I watched it pour out and it just looked so hott below my sexy, hard clit. I think my clit does firm up a bit when I pee.

Anyway, I definitely have some type of auto-eroticism!- on top of my piss kink. I just love my (the female) anatomy. The lips open up. Then, there's a row of three things: That clit, the pleasure source, that can multiply in size, get so firm, and is so sensitive; then the urethra where pee and squirt can pour out of, and I can get the top of my pinky in that little hole; then my pussy hole below that, made for receiving my husband's beautiful penis and just wanting that inside of it. Engaging all three of those at once plus my nipples, wow, it's just crazy how much pleasure the female body can experience at once.

After my shower, I told my husband, "In the shower, I lifted up my leg, pulled open my lips and watched myself pee a clear jet of pee. It just kept coming and coming out, even when I thought it was done." He seemed really turned on by that.

My husband would be down for us peeing while hes in me. Thats one of my ultimate fantasies, but I have so many fantasies, and really look forward to opportunities to try them out. I've been so embarrassed by this side of me my whole adult life, and I know there are so many opportunities I've missed out on to enjoy my piss kink because of my shyness and shame about it.

I know some partners and spouses would be totally put off by this, but I'm so blessed to have a man who is down to piss on me and watch me piss. And us pee together while hes inside me.