Why I feel so bad about myself

I started to feel unworthy— I started to doubt the power that had once healed me, the power of faith with God. I started to accept and be devoured of my negative thoughts to myself.

I couldn’t think of any positive for the whole month of July, I tried to Atleast take care of myself. I started to feel embarrassed of myself, I stared to think how everyone would say because I look like a typical normal unthriving person. It’s been so tougher to accept that I am not heard… that everybody that I have tried to shared what’s happening with me…think they are wise enough let me feel more uncomfortable about sharing.

Even writing here, being an anon person …makes me feel more like I have to invalid my opinions and emotions. My part time job, my late graduation, the social disassociation… I just can’t find myself any more.