HELP ME BRO IM COOKED.

Okay basically to start this story
(inconsistent spelling,grammar mistakes,maybe uncomfy topics idk??,internalized homophobia)

Intro

Alright basically is it casual to kiss your friends? I'm so confused about my sexuality and feelings,I'm pretty confused in my situation since I barely like anyone,and my previous crushes were all guys,but recently I have been more attracted by women(romantically) especially this one girl from the other class aka E,who is one of my close friends in my friend group(all girls).Over time I realized she made EXTREMELY happy,in crush way whcih was RARE,i was looking for her constantly,thinkign about her when i woke up,noticed all her little habits and i honestly felt comforted by her.I mean I sound so corny,but how could I not? She was like my dream girl,short hair like boys length,bubbly,funny,affectionate and she had dimples(MY BAD IF YALL ARE CRINGING HERE.)This part is mostly about myself questioning,since I grew up in a religous family,and homophobia was common. I,myself,should definetely not question my sexuality just yet,or liek be exactly sure.

Part 2

This year she's moving away,as I'm currently writing this only 4 more days till she leaves my school,some reasons why I highkey fell for her when she wiped my tears when I cried finding out the news,when she opened up to me about osmehting private,sends many insufferable memes,and definetely her choosing to spend time with me. At the same time,our friendship is SO FUCKING affectionate,I dont know if this common for yall..🥹.She often pretends to kiss with others and most would usually like disregard her or just like idk,she accidentally kissed my cheek and i have kissed her hands over 3 times in the span of two weeks.I personally dont mind physcial touch such a s cheek kisses but when she does it,i feel so happy and even shy.. LMAO mb if yall got cringed out.We hold hands,cuddle,she sits on my lap ,she leans on my shoulder(she usually is the one who lets ppl lean on her shoulder btu she only does it to me),we flirt ALOT,the 'us' videos on tt (not the spider man and hellokitty I SEE YOU CHRONIC TIKTOK ADDICTS),and we both admit we get flustered with eachother sometimes people point it out especially when we're red.

OKAY THAT WILL BE THE FIRST 2 PARTS IF THIS GETS SOME REPLIES OR ADVICE ILL SHARE PART 3 AND 4 (either way i just needed a place to rant since i dont wana bother my friends) btw im a girl and shes a girl so yes this is wlw or..implied