[M/S] 50F son 25 I've been having sex with my son for 5 years. The first time: the handjob

I shared a vague story a few weeks ago and since then got a lot of DMs asking me how it all started. So here's the story of where it all started.

About 5 years ago I started dating a younger man. It wasn't that long before he made casual passing comments and called me "mom." I didn't think anything of it at first then he started bringing into our sexual play. At first I didn't really like it but then I started to get more into it. It was just harmless roleplay so I didn't put much stock into it. Even though he was only a few years older than my son I didn't think about my son that way. Then when he was drunk he confessed to me part of why he wanted to roleplay with me is he fantasized about his mom. I was pretty taken back by this and pulled away from him for a little while. But eventually I started thinking about it more and it got me thinking more about my son and what it would be like having sex with him. It took me a few weeks but I got the courage to confess to him that he had planted the idea in my head about my own son. He started to encourage me to drop hints around my son and just see how it goes. My son was 19 at the time, living with me still and working in construction (college wasn't for him).

So I did just that. I'll save the specifics of exactly what I did but it was a process for another post. We had mapped out plan A-Z in hopes something would happen. It only took a few months of dropping hints and eventually all the hints forced a conversation with my son. He first brought it up and wanted to know what was going on and why I was so open with him all of a sudden. I told him it was ok to be a little more free about nudity and sexuality and that was nothing to be concerned with. he had questions and said things like, "well you are my mom?" I reassured him I was still a woman with sexual desires and needs. He then asked if he thought other mothers and sons do this. I could tell he was somewhat playing a role because it's not like he had been living in a cave and never met another mother and son. But I played along anyway. I told him every mother and son relationships is different. There are some where talk of sex is completely forbidden and you keep covered all the time. Others where nudity is normal around the house. There are even some where the mother and son have sex. This of course opened a can of worms with questions. Again I know he knew what he was doing and not like he had never heard of incest before but I played along like he was born yesterday. I then told him it much more common than anybody realizes. It might not be every mother and son but far more that keep it a secret and possibly even a majority if one person would step up, go on a limb and make their true feelings known. I hoped he would take the lead from there but he wasn't. Looking back at it now he was only 19 at the time so it didn't surprise me. Instead I waited two more awkward days. If this was going to happen I needed to take charge.

A few days later we were both in the kitchen and he finally brought the conversation back up about our feelings with incest. He told me he'd been thinking about it much more and wondered what it would be like if we had that kind of mother and son relationship where they secretly have sex. I'd like to say I had a good line and said something like, "well there's only one way to find out." But it didn't happen like that. Instead I reached down and could feel he was hard as a rock. I rubbed him through his pants and said "It seems like you've been thinking about this for a while." I started rubbing him through his pants, he was responding to it and moaning. I unbuckled his pants and pulled them part way down and started jacking him off.

He's 19 so it didn't take much. He started moaning and saying, "oh mom, mom I'm going to cum!" I pointed his dick downwards and let him cum on the floor and all over his pants. I held it there for a moment and zipped him back up. Then said, "You better go get cleaned up." I was actually surprised afterwards was not very awkward. We went back to business as usual. we both watched TV that night. we didn't avoid the subject he casually asked me about 30 mins later, "I really liked that do you think we could do that again sometime?" I gave the mom answer of "we'll see" but secretly I was very excited about taking the next step. I also purposely wanted to take one small step at a time like this. Much to the advice of the guy I was dating he wanted to make sure I enjoyed all the small steps along the way instead of taking just one giant leap. After my son went to bed I immediately messaged the guy I was dating with some very excited news about what had happened.