[M4F] Why Am I(23) So Drawn To Older Women?

I've always been this way, for as long as I can remember, and I still can't understand why. I've never been with a mature woman in my time and yet my soul seems to yearn for it, is that wrong of me to want? I now begin my search again to find the answer to this lifes eternal question, why am I so drawn to older women?

It must have something to do with my deep seated desire to be taken care of, the thought of a gentle femdom or some sort of subservient role takes my heart and runs with it, I never seem to get butterflies quiet like when I'm called a good boy or if someone confesses their love to me without any special conditions, I just crave to be wanted. Is that so bad?

I'd love to hear your opinions on my situation, if you feel the same toward younger men, past experiences, the lot, I would love to find out why and what it is that drives me so damn wild.

To Be Taken Advantage Of:

Often times you call me round to move furniture, fix up shelves, help with the garden or even to finish off the extra food you made 'by accident'. I know you just like the company after your husband passed, and it's okay, I like the company too, I just wish you were open with me about it. I've felt the same way about you for years, though I always thought of it as rather taboo, now seems like enough is enough, we must be honest with eachother.

You call me over early saturday morning, a few bits to move around but nothing major, it's only when you call me inside for a drink do I realise I'm not the one to be so open first. The summer dress that hugged your curves had come undone, leaving the fabric to cascade over your shoulders and come resting into the creases of your crossed arms. Your heavy bosom teasing from behind the loose knot barely hanging on at all and doing a rather poor job at keeping your gorgeous skin under wraps.

That look in your eyes. Piercing through my soul. My chest tightens, breathing becomes heavy and with the blood rushing to my head I feel my temples start to throb. You have complete control over me with one glance and I'm helpless to it, I'm yours...

Kinks: Gentle Femdom, Teasing, Free-Use, Pussy Worship (giving), Cock worship (recieving), Impreg, sensual more than lust.