Recovery Story

2 years ago after experiencing a very bad burn out, i had a night where i was very very anxious, had experienced a few panic attacks without knowing what they where. I felt DPDR for the first time. It was never the same for 1y and a half. The first year was me being depressed, unable to feel anything, constantly analysing my thoughts, having vision problems, inteeeense fear of psychosis (this one was the biggest), feeling of not being here, that everything was dilluted and litteraly everything seemed scary and dark, no happiness, just a dark world.

The "secret", it's not about just "anxiety" as a feeling. It's about your body feeling safe. So that's what i did, everytime i engaged with something i noticed how it felt scary for no reason and laughed about it and convinced my self that it was safe althought it wasnt. Then a friend of mine had it. My gf told me that she had it too at some point and that it went away. Then it clicked, i am not the only one, everyone has that, some people just dont obssess about it. Slowly after integrating that this is just something i get to ignore, it slowly started wearing off very slowly. Feelings started coming back, joy, excitement, sadness (the good one), anger etc and vibes came back too but of course just like you i thought i was doomed. Even if it comes back i dont really care, it will go.

Guys, not that big of a deal, really. Although it looks like it. Love