So manyy!!!

Till the end, i just kept telling you how much i mean to me. How capable you are and how much willing i am to be there for you forever!
Wherein you have left me with so many insecurities again!! We could not align because of how many guys you were moving around with. Few for coffee, few from your trips, few ordering food and many on your phone giving video calls or sending nudes from gym.
Till date, i keep thinking about you and i wish that i could stop but i cannot!!
And just like always, you have found the easiest way by blocking me, instead , all i wanted to ask which field i should be focusing upon to plan for after i leave.
But now, my self doubts are its peak.
Sometimes i wanna come so strong on you and other times im just thinking jab usse farak nhi padta, mujhe kyun padta hai.
Its sad and heart wrecking at the same time!!
Also, i had mentioned to you that i have a surprise for you which i wanted to tell you in June( you might not remember) but yea, thats pending!