Very new, and a very curious woman looking to meet another new curious woman..

Keeping it real..I am a 46y woman. I live in Jacksonville Florida. I'm currently married but right now he's temporarily out of the picture for a certain period of time, due to his own poor decision making and I'm dealing with the effects of all that. As of now though, it's just me and I'm really lonely.. and I don't mean that in just a sexual way.. like I don't really have too many friends and that has really taken a toll on me. I am taking this time to find out some things about myself. Anyway don't have many friends. Especially girls because girls and I have seemed to always clash on that level?? Idk why .

But girls have never really liked me..I am honestly looking for another woman that I can get to know.

slowly.. Hangout a few times and see if there is an attraction there. Attraction for me goes beyond just looks.. I honestly want to connect with another woman who has a good heart. Someone who doesn't judge or laugh at others or think that they are better than others. Someone who believes in karma and reaping what you sow. I have found that people with good inside of them are found less and less these days and so to find someone to be friends with at least would be such an amazing experience or pleasure. I am very new to being with a woman. I have had a few occasions where I have been with a woman but it was never a full-on sexual experience. And it honestly scares me to meet someone and get that personal with them. So I would like to find someone that has kind of the same background as me because I think it would be less intimidating? I would just like to find someone that I could experiment with and they would be newly experimenting with me as well. Someone who we could discuss honest and real desires or pleasures.. if it ever gets to that point and then if it doesn't then finding some close friends. I get very nervous and very shy sometimes with all of this and Right now at this point in my experience level, I don't respond well to sexually aggressive chats or discussions. Now maybe down the road if I get more comfortable.???!!.. Lol ...but at this point I'm still feeling all of this out. I don't know if I'm on the right community or if I need to be posting this somewhere else?