Is it normal to hate a feeling?

I have a complex relationship with my feelings, my mom used to hate my crying and in a very Mexixan way, used to say "keep crying and i'll give you a real reasom to cry!" Which meant she she wouls pull my ear or hit me slightly, also back in my childhood, i used to be made fun of for crying

Fast forward today, im still as sensitive, i feel my eyes water a little when i see something i think is way too beautyful, when i watch something very sentimental in movies etc

I love those feelings, yet when i get them i hate to feel like im about to cry, i hate the feeling of tears in my eyes and whatever gets it close by assimilation

There's plenty of songs that reach my heart and i loved listening to them, but because they also give me strong feelings, i hate them too, and avoid listening to them

People tell me its okay to cry, and i agree, but i can't get myself to not hate doing it, to not hate the feeling and not hate whatever brings me close to it, and its very damn awful to love stuff that give me those feelings

That's probably why i avoid listening to a lot of music, watching my favorite show, going back to nostalgic stuff that i like, or even eat some food i like

Damn, it even gets to my everyday life because i genuely enjoy most of being alive, but some times being so intense is what annoys me, it suck to have such complex feelings, so i push myself to not have them