please please help me out

hiiii everyone, im seeking some guidance and help rn, specifically a joi!! i always tend to drift off in my mind when trying to do stuff like this, it can be really hard to focus for me. but i love being told what to do, direct instructions really help my brain to focus and not stray off, and im hoping someone could help me. i’m a very good girl and i listen to orders well!! i have toys as well that i can discuss more in dms :3 i dont have much denial experience, the concept is really hot to me but i never have enough self control, no matter how much someone tries to tell me otherwise. i just hope it might be different this time and find someone who can handle me. i can go into kinks and limits and such in dms if anyone’s interested. please i’m so desperate