Dysphoria

   Around 5 P.M., Yotsuku was at his desk studying till he got a message on his phone that read "Hey".
It was a message from Nora that he replied to with "Hi".
She replied: "Wanna go for a walk?"
He replied: "Now?"
She replied: "Now.”
Then a second later, sent another message: "Wanna talk abt something".
He replied: "Will be out in five minutes."
She sent a thumps-up emoji. That last message had the date signed under it "11/29/2015"

Yotsuku went out to meet Nora and both of them started walking side by side.
Yotsuku said: "So...?"
Nora said: "So?"
Yotsuku said: "You wanted to talk about something."
Nora said: "Yeh, wanted to talk about you."
Yotsuku said: "Me?"
Nora said: "I mean.... isn't it your birthday tomorrow?"
Yotsuku said: "Yes, I think so."
Nora said: “So…. What you planning on doing tomorrow?”
Yotsuku said: “you know the answer.”
Nora said, almost sad and visibly disappointed: “I do yeh…. I do.”, then resumed “It's not normal you know..”
Yotsuku said: “Do I have to explain again?”
Nora, upset, looking at the ground, said: “No you don't. Stupid feelings and stuff huh? You don't like to show them.” Then raised her head and looked at him and resumed: “Tell me. What have you gained from all of this. Do you really believe just because you don't smile or cry you got smarter?”
Yotsuku replied: “Yes.”, then hesitated for a second as if he didn't want to tell her, but did anyway.
“And not just that.”
Nora said wondering: “Not just that?”
Yotsuku said: “You won't believe me.”
Nora stopped in her tracks, consequently so did Yotsuku, who looked at her wondering for a second till she said: “Even if I won't believe it, say it.”
Yotsuku who was around two steps far from her had to walk them back to stand facing her and said: “I haven't eaten in a month”
Nora said, almost shocked: “That's
… an interesting start.”
Yotsuku resumed: “I haven't slept in two weeks either.”
Nora said: “B-but you told me you had a weird dream today.”
Yotsuku replied quickly: “I slept today, and the dream wasn't necessarily a dream. I was awake. I-”
Nora put both her hands on his face, stopping his talk, and said with a sad and concerned look on her face: “Yotsuku…. be honest with me….. Are you happy?”
Yotsuku's eyes moved to the ground and said: “I have had that feeling lately.”
Nora asked: “Is it a good feeling?”
Yotsuku said: “No… I don't think so.”, then gently removed her hands from his face but didn't drop them from his hands and resumed: “I have been having that feeling that I don't belong lately. I don't know what to. Every time I think about it… It reaches so deep…. So deep to the point of feeling that I don't belong to my own self. You know I don't understand feelings, but this one in particular is…. new.”
Still holding hands, Nora pulled him a little closer to her and put her forehead to his and said: “Close your eyes.”, and so did Yotsuku, so she said: “You have to stop this. You were a little clumsy and shy before, but that's not a problem. You were yourself, and that's all that mattered. Please, stop this. Not for me, but for yourself.”
In that second, it happened again. Yotsuku felt her soul, very close to his, shining and blindingly bright. It was brighter than any of the souls he felt this morning. Maybe it was the moment. Yotsuku couldn't know for sure.
Yotsuku raised his head slowly and opened his eyes while she did the same.
Yotsuku said: “Okay.”
Nora said, surprised, excited and almost not believing him: “Okay?!”
Yotsuku said: “How do I start?”
Nora, smiling and keeping her excitement, said: “You didn't smile for more than two years right?”
Yotsuku replied: “Two years and around six months.”
Nora said: “Then it has to be special!
Tomorrow. You sir, will smile tomorrow, and I am going easy on you.”
Yotsuku said: “Will I just smile for no reason?”
Nora said confidently: “Leave that to me! You sir, just have not to lose your teeth till tomorrow.”
Yotsuku said: “I will try.”
The conversation has ended, which led Nora to realize that they are still unknowingly holding hands, so she shyly sled her hands back. It wasn't something they have done before, and most definitely not for that long.