Bleeding heart

Dear hamza,

I am very proud of you. EXTREMELY SO. You are one of the best people I have met. The others being my best friends. I don’t care what other people say but just know that you are a pride and joy to call my best friend. You will have many things going for you. Now that you are in the outside world, know that I will always be there for you no matter what. No matter how far or unreachable you are, I am always just a call or message away and will do anything for you. You are going to do amazing things. Be yourself. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. I believe in you, always have and always will. I wish and pray that you have the best time wherever you go. You are one person who I think deserves it the most (even if you don’t believe me). You are strong and completely capable to face anything life throws at you.

I am a bit reckless but you are the first person to figure me out in such short time. And I don’t ever want to change that. I had hoped that I get some more time with you, but you have something great going on for you and I believe that nothing should hold you back or let anyone clip your wings after life gave you so many hardships. You should be free and soar like the birds we saw (sometimes with double vision).

There are many things I have not told you and will probably never even mention. They have the power to change my universe. As it is, it’s about to change some now. I am sorry about what I am about to say. I have never mentioned this to anyone or hinted about it. But I thought you should know.

I love you hamza. I am in love with you. I don’t even know when it happened but I know why and how it happened. Loving you was effortless. It just came naturally. I have agonized over this a lot. It hurt too, not saying anything and bottling everything but I wanted to savour these carefree moments with you. I share a lot with you but I couldn’t muster up the courage to tell you. Also, I am not telling this to you now in such a stupid way to make you feel ill about it. I am just a coward. As mentioned, you will always have me even if you decide otherwise after this. You are made for greater things love. I hope that this doesn’t ruin or change our friendship. I don’t know if you reciprocate the same and I guess its too much to ask for. But I am very proud of you and your accomplishments. That will never change. I will completely understand and respect if you want space or don’t want to talk to me ever again. Nonetheless let me know about your decision. Please don’t ghost me.

Anyways sorry for this emotional turmoil I just unloaded on you. Go live the life you envisioned and dreamt. And thank you for the wonderful life you showed me. I will never forget you. In case this is the last time, I am in love with you hamza.

Good bye.