Help; how did you REALLY FEEL Jesus?

I have been blazing through this book I found called " the Bible: simplified". If you get confused and stressed at the plot and the progression of the Bible, this book is a game changer! I was really interested in hooked in the Old testament information, and was eager to get to the New testament because I thought I would be emotionally moved by the Jesus chapters. For some reason, I just can't have that emotional feeling. I've tried everything. I've worshiped, I read my Bible, I do my daily devotional, everything I'm supposed to do, and I still just can't FEEL anything? I suppose sometimes I do during a really powerful worship song. But I can't FEEL anything no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I pray, and no matter how much I read. Please please please, please tell me what worked for you!

I want so badly to just be reading my Bible and have an emotional breakdown, but I just don't FEEL. and this is years after trying and reading and doing Bible studies and watching YouTube videos and listening to podcasts.