Work, Relationships, and my Ex

I (32F) worked so hard on establishing myself financially after a horrible relationship, I couldn’t leave that last for 10 years and took most of my YA life. I established a whole new life after 25 and I finally got myself a career I’m excited to be in! I love work and mostly look forward to it every day. It’s sad to say I’ve never really had that before. & work is good for me, otherwise I typically ruin relationships with my tendency to give more attention than I receive. Now I feel sexy, self reliant, and more confident than ever. But there’s something missing. The feeling I used to have when I was with my ex. I could feel this insane pull of attraction towards me when I was at work, and I felt so healthy, where I could work and when I had a break send a quick flirty text. But now that he’s gone, I reach out to Reddit more. It makes me sad. I finally got what I’ve been working so hard for and I can’t even share it with the one person I want to.