Song recs/ advice for friendship that feels fleeting

Okay guys this is a long post but please please read this. This is about my dear friend and i really need advice and also songs that match my situation and please say how it fits.

Okay...Katie has always been really important to me, and I think that's why I get so upset about our friendship. Nothing bad even happened between us. We didn't fight or stop being friends. Somehow we just ended up in different places. I got closer to her sister because she was in my main friend group, and Katie got closer to Maya and Genesis. I also day Katie's dad and he told me Katie feels like her sister Jessie stole me from her bc i was her friend first and that really broke my heart I cry sm thinking abt what could have been. The weird part is that I never wanted that. I always wanted to be closer to Katie. Sometimes I miss when we'd just see each other at school every day and I never had to think about whether we were close because I already knew we were. Now I find myself thinking about things I wish I didn't. When she takes hours to answer me but I know she's calling Maya and Genesis, it makes me wonder if they matter more to her than I do. Not because she's done anything wrong, but because it feels like they're the people she naturally goes to first. I know she cares about me, but sometimes I can't stop wondering if I care about her more. I don't want to be her only friend or take her away from anyone else. I just wish I felt as important to her as she is to me. I wish I didn't always feel like I'm the one reaching out or missing her more. I know i care too much and I miss her more than she could ever think about me and that's sad. Shes also not the most affectionate soapy type so i feel dramatic telling her this. I think what hurts the most is knowing that if she texted me right now and asked to hang out, I'd be excited immediately, because no matter how much things have changed, I still care about her the same way I always have. I just miss her so so bad and I feel so lonely all the time bc I know even if I text her we aren't gonna have the best convo anyways. I js really wanna be closer to her but im so sad we dont really talk as much as we should or as we could. I feel like im always reaching out and that if I stopped, our friendship would js kinda fizzle away I guess.

Thank you guys for reading truly as a sad lonely teen girl in need of help

Advice / songs please 🥹